I’m not giving up each morning I burn a blaze for her and each night I must stifle those flames, so as not to be consumed by my own fiery heart. I only wish I could see her smile and know she is well. I worry every day she is away, I know we must scrape our knees and truly learn what it means to bleed. However we need not go through this pain alone. We need not suffer this sustained longing for home expecting things to change with no water to grow. For excepting a helping hand does not make us weak. A heart, its beat the love we shared was more than just a little neat. This battle fought to suffer alone for the sake of growth is a battle lost as time we could share slips away. For if we seek to suffer we shall pay its cost never knowing what we’ve truly lost. Her time with me and mine with her was no mistake. We loved, we fought, we grew, we lost but through and through our love proved true. But blending with those of discontent left our vibrant pictures grey and bland. Laughter replaced now by tears and love now falling on deafened ears. As words left unsaid tear at our hearts a chance is given for a brand new start. Color regained and through solace reformed we can lift up our love and start it a new or let lie what we try to convince our hearts to deny. For fear to misunderstand words which have yet to be said. Shall we run, shall we hide, or maybe we shall finally fly. Hands out stretched reaching for that which we know for truth. Stopped and blocked by those who drew near claiming to understand the stories of two souls set ablaze by desires unleashed. A part of me, a part of her, we have the key we have the lock all that’s left is to turn the key and start the clock, to unlock what was once thought lost, but forever sought.
P1: = Partner 1 P2: = Partner 2
P2: *Click* *muffled sound*
P1: Hello? It’s me.
P1: I just called today to say I love you.
P1: I know you may not still feel the same way, but still I love you all the same. I know no matter what I do I may never get you to look at me like you used too. Not to say I wish for things to go back to being the same way. No, I want more I want to expose and explore new unknown depths of the soul to go deeper in depth to the beauty that lies inside. To entwine our souls so intricately we nearly lose sight of where you begin and I end, but not so much that we lose track of who we are within.
P1: I want to fall in love with you all over again and again. Each day to grow and explore new sides of ourselves finding out not just who we are, but who we can become as we walk down a path of love so bold and strong none can tell us we’re wrong. I want to look in your eyes and bring tears to them as you feel the warmth of my blazing heart envelope your soul in a flame so warm never again will you know what it means to cold. If I may be so bold to put it simply I want to love you till our days of grey and old.
P1: I know you ask yourself why do I only say all this now that you’ve gone away. It’s not that I’m saying this because you’ve gone away, I’ve been saying these things all along the way. I was just using different words and different actions and had yet come to fully understand my own heart. But just like I promised you on that day I would learn to redirect my energy in a new way and so back to life I sprung. It took time and pain to reawaken something I thought was lost this language of the heart and the words I’ve sought have finally come hand in hand so at last my love won’t be lost in translation for I can speak now in words you can understand. I love you with all that I am and all that I will become. I wish to not just stand as a man before you but stand up as a man who you feel is worth being a part of your plan.
P1: It’s not like I miss you only on certain days. I count every second that your away. Hoping someday I can stop counting and share with you all the things I’ve had planned for two. Each morning I rise your absence brings tears to my eyes. It’s like I’m half paralyzed until I get to gaze upon you and profess these things you thought were beyond you. I love you more than the first breathe of air I take each morning because without you here no amount of air can cure this suffocation of the heart. So please breathe life back into these lungs of mine so once again we can show this world something more real than a tale as old as time.
P1: Please say something! You’ve got my heart held in your hand. What is it that’s your plan? You’re my sunshine yet my kryptonite tell me will I live or die tonight. Tell me I’m not crazy for loving someone I can’t even see, someone I may never get to hold again. Tell me you haven’t let go and I’m not plummeting to the ground faster than the speed of sound all while thinking we can still fly again. Let me hear the truth from you and you the truth from me. I’m so tired of playing telephone especially when your the only one I want to hear calling my phone. If you can hear all I’ve got to say and see all I’ve done for you and look me in my eyes and not tell me any lies at last I’ll know if it’s truly our demise. So please if you’re going to hold my heart or crush it at least let me know it.
P2: At the tone please record your message when you are finished recording you may hang up or press 1 for more options. *Beeeeeeeep*
P1: *Smiles & tears begin to stream down his cheek*
P1: I love you.
Once again a big thank you to holy for putting my ideas to paper. This is the new logo for SightForTheBlindSoundForTheDeaf blog/eventual site. As always I’ve linked her Facebook at the bottom.
I have grown wings bigger than what one can see with their eyes
With feathers that number more than the stars in night skies
With great ease I have learned to flap my wings
For through tragedy they were meant to carry me
Alas my night skies are no more
For I am grounded in a world with out air to grant me flight
So in my mind I will imagine what it means to sore through open skies
I will run for miles through barren lands and flap my wings like great big fans
Close my eyes and dream the dream to live a life among the stars
Until the day my sweet air returns granting me the lift to fly
H: Husband W: Wife
H:*Stares into the eyes of his love. A smile slowly creeping up the corner of his lips as the thoughts of just how perfect she was filled his mind.*
W: *blushes* Whaaaaaaat?!?!
H: Just trying to figure out how to describe how much I love you.
W: *blushes again* How about this much? * Streches her arms to either side of her using the distance between her hands to represent how much he may love her.*
H: *Smiles warmly* Well while that is a lot dear it’s not nearly enough to represent how much I love you.
W: What about to infinity? * Smiles brightly back.*
H: Inifinity is still too small to describe how much I love you.
W: Well how can infinity be too small it’s infinite?
H: Well I already love you beyond the end of time and time is infinite.
H: So if my love for you is already infinite and I grow to love you more each day doesn’t that mean infinity is too small to describe my love for you?
H: So again I say infinity is too small describe how much I love you.
W: So if infinity is too small how will I know how much you love me.
H: Well there’s a problem dear words can’t describe how much I love you.
W: Than how will I know? *crosses arms and pouts* Hmph!!
H: Just look into my eyes and you’ll see an eternity that goes beyond the skies. Kiss me deeply and taste the never ending reservoir that’s is my love. Step closer and be engulfed in my ever warming embrace. Speak to me and watch me dance to the most beautiful song this world has ever known. Smile and watch the fireworks of my heart light the night sky. Lean your head against my chest and hear the beat of a thousand worlds all praising your name. Watch every second pass by so slowly it’s almost as if time has stopped just for the two of us to gaze upon the other. Watch time lose all meaning and numbers all value as I hold you in my arms tonight.
W: *Tear falls down her cheeks accompanied by a huge smile* Jerk!!!! *Slugs his shoulder*
H: *Smiles, pulls her close. Hugs her and whispers in her ear.* So see love words can’t express my love for you, but I will spend all of eternity, beyond forever and in more than infinite ways to show each day how much I love you.
W: *Hugs him tightly and giggles.* I guess infinity is too small.